I Believe in Me

“You have to give up all your extra activities and you can’t be a kid anymore. You will get a job and support you and your child because I won’t do it.” This is what my mother said to me when I was seventeen and pregnant. She was trying to convince me to not have my child. Still till this day my mother and family try to get me to do things their way. I have always been a strong willed person. I loved pushing the envelope, trying new things, and challenging myself. I love helping others and making people see they can do anything they put their minds to. I know I was put on this earth to make a difference in someone’s life. In order to do this I must first believe in me.

That day my mother said those words to me changed me forever. I’m happy now that I look back at it. Those words made me feel so alone and angry at the time. It made me feel like it was me and my child against the world. On the other hand, it made me believe in myself. It made me dig deep within and make my way for myself and child. I had desires deep within myself I never told anyone because I didn’t want to disappoint my family. I would give in and do what they said just to keep the family image good. I did this until April, 2010. One day I finally just thought enough is enough. I would never want to die not know what it meant to feel at peace. I finally quit my job and decided to do what I have always wanted to do. I decided to be a nurse even though my family said I can’t do it because I have children to raise. I believe in myself enough I know I can and will do this.

August, 2010 was the first month I went back to school since 1997. I believe that I will become a nurse and help others. I will make others see and believe in themselves as I did myself. I will make them see even when things get hard just believe in yourself and never give up on yourself. If I can believe in myself and go back to school to achieve my goals and dreams anyone can achieve their dreams too. This I believe.