Compelled by Fear

Joshua - Brockway, Pennsylvania
Entered on April 9, 2009
Age Group: Under 18
Themes: fear
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I believe that no matter how big or how small a person is, fear is something that compels people to make choices and to help identify their character. Everyone struggles each day with a new fear or a new decision. Fear isn’t just the eerie cold people feel in a dark, vacant alley, or when people fear for their lives. No, fear is much, much more. It is the worry felt before doing something. It is also the indifference people feel after making a decision as well as before they do activities. Nervousness is a type of fear as well. Fear can’t just be defined as one or two things that scare us. Fear is a feeling that’s always present within us.

I am a person who my family and I consider as having a natural handicap of fear, as I worry about every little thing. But I do not consider this a bad thing. Worrying about things helps me to make the right choices. Because I worry all the time, I have grown to appreciate fear. It has helped me to become the person I am.

No matter how people try to live their lives, safely or dangerously, fear is always there. You can’t just turn around and not face your fears. If you do that, society sees you as a coward. The universal idea of people is that whenever a fear presents itself to you, you have to face it head on and defeat it. Doing this each and every day helps to shape our us.

I experience different situations each and every day, some good, some bad. I react, I’m sure, differently than others and I react by my own capability. I don’t normally go through things without thinking about them first and analyzing in my own mind what might happen if one thing happens or another. This is fear as well. The fear of not knowing things compels me to be a very careful person. Not everyone would agree that that’s the best way to live your life, but that’s how I live mine.

When it comes to doing things, especially before a crowd, I become very nervous. This is my own fear of not wanting to fail in front of the people watching me. Once in third grade, I fainted on stage during a music production. Fear is in everyone and is a part of everyone, so I know that I am not the only one who feels this burden.

I don’t feel as if the fear that myself and millions of others feel is a curse. Many people however, feel as though living a life without dealing with fear is best. I feel it is best to live with fear and learn. I learn a lot from fearing things. The little inner struggles I cope with daily have helped me to shape my personality and my character.

Not every fear is a fear that destroys our happiness or creates a feeling of living inside ourselves. Not every fear creates dread that we can’t deal with. Fear is also worrying about whether or not I have made the right choices, or fearing what will happen down the road and how I’ll cope with it. Whichever ‘version’ of fear it may be, this I believe: the complex idea of fear is what compels us and is a big part of making complex people who they really are.