My Life is a dark whole?

there was a time in my life when i felt crying wasn’t a feeling… at this point in my life, i feel that like other human beings, i struggle with daily challenges. but i believe that life is a virtue and i can’t change the past. so i live my life with my eyes open. thinking about the good in my life, the past, and the present. the future…..still exists in my very busy middle school life, but i just don’t see it there in the dark blank back corner of my full mind sometimes. as i develop new ideas, and redevlop old ideas, it isn’t tucked back even further because god stands in the way of me losing my sense. i love my life for exactly what it is. and i always will this i believe.