When In Doubt, Write It Out

Alyssa - Wilmington, Massachusetts
Entered on March 2, 2009
Age Group: Under 18
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I believe everyone finds their own ways of expression. A way to let what’s inside of you shine through. Personally, I’ve found that the best way I can let my thoughts out is on paper. For about a year now, I’ve been writing to get things out of my head and my heart. At first, I was a little embarrassed; I felt kind of stupid trying to write lyrics, like what am I trying to do here? But as time progressed I found myself reopening the word document on my computer, where I keep everything I’ve ever written, more frequently than ever. It dawned on me that this was more than something to do when I’m bored; it was my personal outlet.

So I kept writing. For the longest time, all I could ever write were a few lines. I felt defeated, because I’d begin writing a song, and I’d never be able to finish it. But I kept at it. Finally, I began finishing songs. I felt truly accomplished, like I reached a personal goal, and in a way I had. Now I write all the time, wherever I am. Currently, my word document I started one summer night when I was bored, has reached 101 pages, and counting. Usually, what’s happening around me will inspire me. The easiest thing for me to write about is love, and being in high school, there’s plenty to write about. So constantly, I find myself piecing words together, rhyming where a rhyme fits, and write my life out into song.

Maybe the reason writing a song is the way I express myself, is because I can so easily wrap my mind around a situation, and twist it into a poem. Usually, while something is happening in my life, I’ll only be able to write little bits and pieces about it. But, when the situation is in the past, and I can stop and take the time to reflect on how it really made me feel, I’m able to finish a song about it. For me, it’s the simplest closure I can find, and I can have it whenever I want it. At times, when I’m working on something like homework, I have to stop and write for a little bit, before I can move on and get anything done. I’m always using writing as my outlet for expression, even when I have other things on my mind.

More than anything, taking simple everyday words, and turning them into something beautiful, is what is really fulfilling. I like to be able to say that what I’ve written has come from the heart, gone through the mind, and fallen onto paper. Though I believe writing lyrics is the best way to express your feelings and relay your emotions, I am bias, and I know and believe that everyone has their own way to express themselves using creativity. And so I believe that when we leave, we should all leave something behind. So if you ask me, it would have to be, something from the heart and the mind. But if you can’t find a reason or rhyme, or if you just don’t have the time, I’d tell you to when in doubt write it out, and everything should be just fine.