loss love

mclovin - phenix, Arizona
Entered on February 17, 2009
Age Group: 18 - 30
Themes: love
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Loss love

John, Remus, MI: I believe that love is a thing that people should cherish. I also think that love gets lost in a matter of time. I know that some people think relationships in high school don’t matter. But this is a story about a love from one friend to another, that matters to me. We started out as friends and our friendship became greater as the year went on. We started to tell each other pretty much everything. Like why life was so tough at home. We started asking each other what should we do about it. Every time that question came up it got us both thinking. There is nothing we can do. So we go back to how it normally is, and then she called me one night and said that she had something to say. I’m thinking it’s going to be about her mom and her or her fighting with people but it wasn’t. She asked me whom I liked. She was dating someone at the time so I really didn’t know what to say. I’m the type of kid that just lays low and waits to hear something about me.

I liked her for awhile and I just didn’t know what to say. I guess I was kind of scared so I told her that I don’t really know. Then I asked her what made you bring that question up. She said didn’t know, she was just wondering. So I kind of knew that something was up. But I played it off for a while and kind of kept it to myself. I kept it to myself because she was dating one of my best friends and I know that I didn’t want to mess any thing up between them because I would feel horrible. So I just went on doing school and talking to her and going to work. While I’m at work I’m kind of just doing my own thing. I’m a kind or peaceful person; I like my space. Then the drive that gets in every guy’s head, and it’s just like why would she ask me that. She starts to be the only thing that you can think of. You don’t know what to do, or how to stop it; you’re not even sure you want to stop it.

Then all of a sudden you just can’t take the pressure anymore so you crack you call her up and have something to tell her then you say never mind because you start to have second thoughts about it. Then she’s still on the other line in your ear, and she said just tell me! What it is. So I tell her that I have feeling for then you always get that slit peace of silent that feels like it last for ever. But it’s only like 30 sec. Then you get the ok hmmm yeah I got to go. So you don’t know what to do you go to school the next day and you have that little awkwardness between you. Then things are all good the rest of the day. Then a couple of days later she said I have to tell you something. And this is when she is dating your good friend too. She tells you she has feelings for you. You don’t know what to do, you just feel like crap and good at the same time because you know you can’t date her. Then once you know it goes good for a while but then it just falls apart because you’re not going to do anything because she’s dating one of your good friends. So you take a step back and you lose your friend ship with her. It makes you feel like nothing else matters in life. That’s why I say that in time love makes you and others fall apart.