The Power to Forget and Forgive

Ashleigh - Remus, Michigan
Entered on February 11, 2009
Age Group: 18 - 30
Themes: setbacks
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Two weeks after my 18th birthday I thought life was going to get better for me. I had the most amazing boyfriend and I had all my friends that I could go hang out with all the time. The only thing I didn’t have was a family that really cared; all my parents ever did was work all the time and never spent time with us kids. And when they did spend time with us we only went on vacation or somewhere where they could just run away from work. But we didn’t like that we just wanted to be at home and be able to chill and not have to watch our six year old brother every night because my parents wanted to go out and hang out with there friends at the bar after work. But I was wrong…

It was exactly two weeks after my birthday and my mom and step-dad had gone somewhere up north to go on vacation. My little brothers and I had already been up there but we had to leave because it was “adults only” up there now. My mom came home for a funeral and saw that I that I didn’t take my car to work. I knew that she would be mad that my boyfriend had taken me to work so I lied and told her that I walked. When I was at work I realized I forgot something at home so I had to have my little brother bring me something to work with my car (my brother is 17), I didn’t think that it was that it was that big of a deal. To my mom it was. That whole day at work she had been texting me telling me how immature I was for letting my brother drive two miles to drop something off to me and for lying to her telling her that I walked to work instead of my boyfriend driving me. My mom went back to where ever she was vacationing at. When I got home from work I started texting her asking her what her deal was and why she got so upset I understand she got upset that I lied to her but that wasn’t really even mad about that. She told me I needed to do what my brother did and move to my dads to learn some respect for her. So that is exactly what I did.

She tried telling people that she did tell me to move out and that she didn’t kick me out. But when she says this she is just lying to herself to make her feel better about the whole thing and to make it look like I was the screw up and that I can’t live with out her money or having her buy everything for me. I am happy right now where I am in life. And I am glad that she did that because it showed me the real her. People always think that my mom is a good person and she does everything for her kids but everybody that thinks that is so wrong about her. I just want to say I don’t know when I will be able to forget or forgive her but I will someday in the near future.