How to Save the World

Renee - Bryan, Texas
Entered on December 17, 2008
Age Group: 30 - 50
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When I was in high school, trying to decide

what I was going to be when I grew up, I

thought my calling in life was to help

people. I only qualified education or

medicine or some other care taking job as

worthy of ‘helping people” or making a

difference. Following that theory I took the

obvious path of nursing, following my

mother’s footsteps. I spent the next 15

years as a pediatric nurse, helping people,

and hating it. The emotional burden was

something that I never successfully walled

heart away from. I grieved every child,

and their aching loved ones. I have never

forgotten the names and circumstances of

the kids that I cared for who died. I

specialized in the care of chronically sick

children, and nurtured their families. I

grieved everyday. A child I cared for, for

over three years, whose family I have

become a part of; died suddenly. It was the

breaking point for me. The desire to make

a difference in the world was tearing me


After a year or so of soul searching, and

asking myself questions like “what do I

want to do with my life”, and “what am I

passionate about?”, I finally had a moment

of inspiration. I love books. I am a

bibliophile through and through. Reading is

my escape, my drug of choice, my worldly

(and sometimes otherworldly) adventure.

After turning the ideas over in my head and

heart for a short time, an idea took hold,

and a new career was fashioned. A crash

course in web design, and some amazing

supporters in family and friends allowed me

to take off my stethoscope and launch a

website for authors and readers to promote

the conversation of books. Until recently, I

have felt a little like I comprised that

original idea of saving the world, by

selfishly following my dream.

I now realize that helping people, as with

the rest of life, is not black and white.

There are many shades in between. I now

know that one does not have to

compromise oneself in order to help others.

Quite the opposite actually. In striving to

be a balanced person, and seeking joy, I

have so much more to offer those who I

care for, instead of being a victim to grief,

and martyrdom. Having the courage to

follow your dreams, take care of yourself,

and lead others to do the same is worthy,

and noble. By allowing authors to promote

their dreams, readers access, and sharing

my story with the followers along the way,

I am touching people. I believe that

following your heart, and pursuing your

dreams is not a selfish act, but in fact is

touching people around you in ways that

are intangible, yet so inspiring.