I do strongly believe in something; and that is that I truly believe that God has a purpose established for my life. He does have something special for me; I jus need to find out what it is.
I have asked myself why do I think this; why is it that I have a strong belief in God’s purpose? Something inside of me gave me the answer to all of my questions.
Every time I try to something on my own strength, things just do not go out as they should go; every time that I am the one controlling all the events and things around me, things just do not go well. I have had many plans and projects for my life, and some of them I just discovered are not the one God wants for my life. You might be asking, “But how do you know this?” and if you were a believer you would understand, but maybe you are not quite convinced of what I am talking about so here is my explanation. As I said before, my projects are n to always God’s project for my life; some of these projects I have practiced over and over again, and I only seem to fail.
For example, my plan was to graduate form La Estancia School, and I tried several times to graduate from there, and I always asked God to help me finfish high school at that school, but I never asked Him if He wanted me to graduate from La Estancia, so I changed school for the first time and I went back trying to persevere. I stood at La Estancia for about two more years, and at the end of the second year, report cards were about to be sent home; I just did no knew what to d, I knew that I had failed my school yea, so I went to take recuperations, and I did passed my eight recuperation classes; but four for of them, and then I realized I was not graduating the next year but two years later. It was difficult, and at that moment I was not able to understand what was happening, but now when I look back, I realize that me graduating from La Estancia was not in God’s purpose but in my own purposes. Thanks to experience I wondered that I needed to change my way of asking God’s will for my life.
In the past I have always asked God to give me strength to do something, but I have never asked Him if I should do that, so as time has passed by, I have learned that I first need to ask Him if He thinks that what I am about to do is the correct thing to do and then ask Him for strength.
Now I see that one of the many purposes that god has for my life, is to graduate form International School and to have International School as one of my precious memories in lif. And this has made me realize that my projects and plans for my life are not necessarily His projects for my life.
I might not know, what the main purport is that God has for my life, but what I do know is that sooner or later that purpose will be revealed in my life as time passes by and God works on it, and this time it will not be my own strength and not my own decision but His. As I said, I might not know my main purpose, but I know why as a created for, I was created to exalt, adore and glorify the name of Jesus Christ above all name for the rest of my life. Every day, every minute, and every second; I need to make my Heavenly Father proud.