Mommy never loved me.

Carl - Lebanon, Pennsylvania
Entered on May 14, 2008
Age Group: Under 18
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1. In my life I have had some obstacles to overcome. My mother is a crazy alcoholic and my dad has been in and out of jail for a while. Recently he has gotten out of jail and my life has been easier. But when he was in jail life was pretty hard because my dad’s girlfriend would rather smoke crack than come home. And she only makes about $ 100 a week. So all of her money is useless, she just puts it toward her stuff. And my dad basically has to pay for her to go to work. She only makes enough for her and my dad has to put gas in the car that she takes to work. My dad rather takes her side than my brothers and I. My dad also had cancer. This was another hard time in my life.

My mom has not been around since I was about seven. And every now and then she will try to get me to talk to her but “F” that. She was not here for 9 years why should I let her act like she loves me now? Last year my brother fell off his bike and she saw that he had a bruise and took him into Children and Youth and they said it was a belt mark. If it was a belt mark it would not have been on the front of his thigh. But they thought they knew better. So Children and Youth had taken them away and my dad went down hill from there. He could only see the kids on Thursday every other week. The worst part about it all was my mom just wanted the monthly child-support money that my dad would give her. My dad’s business that he owns used to make a lot of money, I’m talking about 70-80 thousand a year. But it really took a crap and now he’s lucky to make 50 grand. She was getting about $750 a month for each kid and she had both of my brothers.

But my dad got my brothers back because my mom was screwing this own dude and another one too. The first guy found out about the second and the second already knew about the first. And the worst part about it was that she was screwing guy two to use his internet and for a case of beer. It is sad because this guy is pretty much a pedifile. He walks around the mall and he will see a kid and buy him a pretzel or something. He’s a freak. My mom then got caught drinking way too much alcohol. So she took AA classes to keep my brothers but it did not work because she showed up to my dad’s visit completely drunk so now my brothers haven’t seen her since December. My middle brother loves my mom. She would see him when I was younger but not me. And my youngest would get to see her a little bit less than him but way more than me. So now she just doesn’t see any of us. And I have learned to overcome the fact that my life is a living hell. And now I’m almost and Eagle Scout. And I do community service a lot. And I am doing my best in school.