This I Believe

Connor - Eugene, Oregon
Entered on March 29, 2007
Age Group: 30 - 50
Themes: parenthood
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My father lived in Las Vegas

He worked as an electrician

He moved away when I was a child

I need to believe my father loved me

My father’s father died when he was just a boy

He found childish love and alcohol to ease his sorrow

He and my mother eloped secretly at seventeen

I need to believe my father loved me

My father drank when his son died

I was just a baby

My mother asked for a divorce

I need to believe my father loved me

My father contacted my older siblings

They resented his choices

He called them every father’s day

I need to believe my father loved me

My father came to town

Our encounters searched for meaning

Many years went by between visits

I need to believe my father loved me

My father moved back to town

Miscommunication and life came between us

My father moved back to Vegas

I need to believe my father loved me

My father’s illness caused him pain

He said he didn’t have a family

His neighbors thought he was very lonely

I need to believe my father loved me

My father died alone in Las Vegas

The authorities didn’t know who to contact

We came when we got the news

I need to believe my father loved me

I believed my father loved me

As we searched through all his things

His hand written dieing wish did not mention his children

I’ll never believe my father loved me