Tick-Tock

“Tick-tock tick-tock Booom”! Another person just blew up in anger. I believe that everyone including myself are ticking time bombs. No of course not literally, but you know what I mean. Every human being has a point in their life where they are tired of holding back tears, emotions, and feelings. When I’m at that point in life, I feel as if I can cause mass destruction to myself and to others. My body just floods with adrenaline, my hands go light and my body goes completely numb, and my mind goes blank, as if I just cleared my mind.

I myself have blown up on a numerous amount of people. There was a time at a local park where an individual was trash talking to me and my little brother. It was an everyday thing, every single day, he would try and put me and my little brother down. Although, I never let him get to me, he used to get inside of my little brother’s head all of the time. But one day, he did it, he pushed all of my buttons, all of my anger and hatred came all out at once. From months, weeks, and days everything bottled up inside me and it finally escaped. I got up from the park bench and grabbed him, threw him on the floor and began to hit him multiple times in the face. I was yelling at him and telling him how much he disgusts me. I continued to hit him for about thirty seconds. Until someone’s parent that was at the park, pulled me off of him, and said she was going to call the police on me for assault. I tried to tell her how much he bullied me, and picked on me, and my little brother but she wouldn’t listen, and began to talk to the dispatcher at the police station. I ran as fast as I could, but as soon as I was at the corner by my house, a police officer jumped out of his vehicle, and speared me into the floor, and said that I fit the description of an assault that happened earlier that day at the skate park. Yes, I did get in trouble and sent to juvenile hall, I regret it to this day, but I still believe the young man deserved it.

What I have learned in my life about anger, emotions, and feelings is that it’s not good to take it out on someone just because they are giving you a hard time. For one, it is not good for yourself, you can seriously hurt someone, and you as a good person need to become the bigger person, and just let the other people be. If they want to act childish, let them. Another life lesson that it had taught me was that it is not good to keep all of your feelings bottled up inside, it is always good to open up to someone. You can open up to just about anyone, and the good thing is, is that it doesn’t have to be a person, it can be a journal, a pet, or even yourself at times. I just believe that it is not good to keep your feelings inside.