Days of Addiction

Have you ever felt so sick you just want to die? Growing up in a Christian-based home it may come as a shock to some that I have been at this point in my life. When moving out on my own, I have found out that the saying to be true. That the streets are strong and it can bring you down to your lowest point in life. So that brings me into this whole new life that I could have lived without.

The first days of addiction are the hardest. The first few years it wasn’t so bad you know everybody was doing it so they say. There was nothing wrong with taking a few pain pills, yeah sometimes to get high, but most of it was to kill the pain in my back or my legs. As I was taking them so was my brother. We went from popping them to snorting them. It never seems to be a big deal taking a few pain pills. We were telling our family that our body hurts, they knew it was wrong. As I said it was just a few pain killers. But those few turned into a few more than a few more.

Life went on and a few years later we have moved. Nice neighborhood, short walking distance to my new job, everything was going great. Not noticing my addiction was getting stronger. I came to realization that the pain killers have gotten worst. This creates the phrase chasing the dragon. One day I came home and my brother was waiting for me and stated “Hey I have something new for us to try it will take the PAIN away and keep it away longer” and so when he told me it was “H” aka heroin and automatically said no. So a few days go by and we couldn’t find any pain killers and he said he can get some “H” and I was still hesitant about it but with not having anything else I tried it. At first it didn’t seem any different than snorting a few pills but as you take a little of it you find yourself taking more and more. Which again I was chasing the dragon.

So in the final days I went to my mom church and the pastors prayed for me, and I gave my life back over to the lord. Since that day my brother and I went to a hotel and stayed for a week to get clean and that was the week of March 12, 2014. Since that week my brother and I have been clean. Since that day neither of us wants to touch heroin in our life ever again. As they say you can do all things through Christ that strengthens me. Anybody that read this essay I hope this is a little insight of what this drug can do to you and your family and I will be praying for you all.