This I Believe

Christina - Loveland, Colorado
Entered on May 4, 2006
Age Group: 18 - 30
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For as long as I can remember I’ve been a Christian. But although I believed in God, I started to become more and more distant from him. I began thinking about how I could do things on my own. Questioning why such bad things could happen in my life such as how my younger brother could go to jail at only seventeen years old. My life began to feel as though it was spiraling out of control. I felt alone, depressed, and like I didn’t belong. I was lost!

One night I decided that if I only I would allow God to take control, ask for forgiveness, and let him know how much I needed him in my life I would feel whole again, like I had a purpose. I prayed, “Lord, please forgive me of all my sins. I’m sorry that I’ve been so distant. Lord, I don’t want to be selfish but I need you, Lord, now more than ever. I haven’t felt complete for awhile now and all I ask is that you give me guidance Lord, direct me in the path of life you want me to follow, and please help me to be more like you. Again, I’m sorry Lord for ever turning from you, you are the only thing I ever need. You are my everything and I can’t do it with out you, Lord, I love you with all my heart. Please Lord guide me and watch over all those I love and those they love. Thank you for everything, Amen.”

The next morning I decided I was going to go to a young adult youth group called Flip The Switch at Timberline Church on Friday. It was only Tuesday but I had made my decision; not even knowing a single person who’d be there. When Friday finally came I was so excited and couldn’t wait. This was very strange for me considering I’ve always had a problem with feeling like a loner and I had no idea who’d be there.

That night at Flip The Switch was amazing like it was all centered on me from the message to the worship. And then a young woman named Noelle walked to the piano and began to sing. The words she sang touched my heart so much that I began to cry. I couldn’t control myself as I wept. The song felt as though it was written from the exact emotions I was feeling and I could only picture myself as she sang, “I turned my back but you still call my name…” That’s when I realized God hears my prayers.

I later asked Noelle, a person I’d never spoken to before, what that song was called. She told me that she had written it the night before and had prayed to God that it would touch just one person, just one! I believe God hears my prayers, and I can’t think of any better way to discover this than the way I did.