Unconditional love

Unconditional love is complete and has no restrictions. I never understood why my mother would always say “I love you; unconditionally.” I knew what unconditional love was but I had no idea what it was like to love someone unconditionally, until that very special day.

On June 14, 2009; a week after I graduated high school, I decided I should take a pregnancy test. I began pacing the living room as I waited for the results. I was only 18, why would this happen to me? My boyfriend and I had only been together for 8 short months and how could we raise a child? I honestly didn’t think I was pregnant; I thought God was trying to scare me. Well I had thought wrong; I walked into the bathroom and fell to my knees. I was very scared for the future.

July 6th came rather quickly; I will never forget this day. This was the day I started to experience unconditional love. I saw my little baby and heard his or her heartbeat for the very first time. A month had gone by and the doctor had some bad news. She said “I had been looking at your sonogram photos and there is a bigger gap than normal between the brain and the spine. I want you to know that this is a sign of a baby with Down syndrome.” I began asking myself; Why me? I am going to be a young mother and now you want me to take care of a Downs baby? How would I be able to support him or her? I could have amniocenteses done but I don’t want to risk losing my baby just to find out. We underwent further blood testing for this issue. On the other hand, I found out that my little bundle of joy was a precious, little boy.

As the next four months went by, I kept myself busy by picking out a baby names and rearranging my room to make room for my little boy. I had my 39th week check-up on Monday, February 8, 2010. My blood pressure was increasing each time so we scheduled an induction for Thursday, February 11, 2010. I went in to the hospital at 3 A.M. on Tuesday. They told me that I was in labor! I gave birth to Aydin Josiah at 10:01 A.M. Holding my little boy for the first time was incredible. I don’t even know how to explain it. Aydin was 6 lbs. 12 oz., 19 inches long, and to top it all off a very healthy baby boy!

I believe in unconditional love because my love for Aydin will never end no matter what! I started to feel this feeling of unconditional love when I heard his heartbeat, felt him kick, and most importantly when I held him for the first time. He changed my view on the whole world. He is truly amazing in so many different ways.