Always Be Ready

Change will always come and how you adapt to it can define you. When I was a freshman in high school I thought to myself “well this is a brand new place” I was scared of all the new things here. It certainly was not like my middle school where I was very introverted and awkward. In a way I liked it; I became less introverted when I made some friends which boosted my confidence and such. Everything went better than expected that year. During that year we all hung out and became what I as a high schooler defined as a friend, life was good during that year. Then in sophomore year it started out well we had some classes together and worked on some projects together, the whole shebang. Then in time I was slowly phased out of what by then had become a pack. Then when I needed their support everything came crumbling down to add insult to injury; when it was my birthday, I was forgotten, screamed at, and made out to be the bad guy. I was devastated, felt like why me? What did I do? Could I have changed this? Needless to say I was pretty depressed and felt helpless. Then I realized a few months later that, they don’t define me, and I decided that I was not going to go back to being an introverted mess. Returning to Colombia let me see that there are many more important problems than, OH MY GOSH HE CALLED ME A –, I have been able to let go of the anger that was messing with my school work, my grades, and my other friendships that were not affected by this. During the summer of my junior year I had much time to think, and then it hit me. Some people have main roles in your life and others; well others should only make an appearance. I fell into the trap of thinking being part of a pack was cool and we should all follow what the pack thinks is cool whether it’s a new kind of music or wearing the same clothes as some other groups of kids at school like to think. All I know is that I have no reason to feel sorry for myself, life constantly evolves and changes and whether I let it get me down or if I persevere through it is up to me, this, this I believe is a true fact of life.