This I believe

Music isn’t only a drug for me; it’s a way of life. Music is the only thing I get up for in the morning, the only thing that will help me fall asleep at night. I like all kinds of music really and all are appropriate for different occasions. The Beatles, Led Zeppelin and The Smiths if I’m feeling nostalgic, Nirvana and The Smashing Pumpkins if I want to jump up and down and act like a rock star. Then there’s Sarah McLachlan, Joni Mitchell and Carole King to mellow out to. Also there’s No Doubt, Garbage, The Go-Gos, Paramore and The Pretenders or in other words the girl fronted bands. Some rap is occasionally good like ‘90s Eminem or just the stuff that has a better groove than what’s played on the radio most of the time. There’s also Madonna but only her ‘80s and ‘90s stuff, everything other than that is not very good.

At a young age, music took me over. My parents introduced me to the biggies: Nirvana, Sublime, Bob Marley, and the blues. When I was younger I was convinced I was going to be a famous singer/songwriter. At age 10, I wrote my first song with my Dad. Needless to say, even with parental help it wasn’t my best. I still write but instead of having the verse chorus verse format that most other songs have, mine are just poems. In middle school, they were modeled after my then musical obsession, The Smashing Pumpkins. Now that I’ve grown out of my angsty stage (somewhat) I try to write more like Sarah McLachlan.

There is a perfect song for heartbreak or when I fall in love. There will always be a soundtrack in my head playing at certain times. Then when I replay that moment in my head it’s like I’m the composer for a film. In the off chance that there isn’t a song that explains exactly how I’m feeling at a moment, I write it myself. That’s where it’s tricky to write songs like that. Sometimes the ideas just flow, others it’s like a road block. Whatever I’m feeling at the time has already been written and I’ll end up ripping it off or it’ll be complete rubbish. There is another catch though. Even if what I do write is good, I am NOT a musician. I’m just a writer so whatever I write will be forever stuck on the page mostly because I’m too shy to show any musician. I would hope that they could put some music to my lyrics/poem. Someday I will get over my shyness and I will show another music lover who can actually play an instrument but until then this is what I believe.