Never give up

A couple of weeks back as I was sitting in room I got a call. I looked at the caller i.d and saw that it was my friend so I answered it with my usual cheerful hello. There was silence on the other line. So I said hello again and then I heard the crying. That made me very alarmed and instantly I tried to figure out what was wrong with her. She told me she had been cutting and starving herself for a little while. I immediately became worried for my friend who I thought was so strong and confident.

At that moment I just wanted to hang up and pretend I hadn’t heard anything, but I knew that wouldn’t help me or her. I tried to figure out exactly why she was cutting herself but couldn’t really understand everything she was saying. When I asked her to repeat what she said, she lashed out and told me I would never understand what she was going through because my life was “perfect”. Shortly after that we hung up the phone, and I just sat on my bed looking at my hands wondering what in the world can I do to help her?

None of my solutions were good ones or at least not good enough for her. So then I tried saying I was going to tell her mom or her sister. She would then say things like I will never talk to you again and I would hate you so much. I couldn’t bring myself to tell them because I was afraid of losing her.

Eventually she did tell her mother about her cuts but not about the starving. I was relieved when I heard she had told her but then I realized it didn’t fix the other problem, and I wasn’t convinced that it would make her stop. She tried convincing me that she would stop cutting and starving herself, but I was skeptic.

Unfortunately I was right, she began cutting herself again. Yet not nearly as much as the first time. Every time she begins to think that there is no other way to cope with the pains of life she cuts. The cutting supposedly helps her but I don’t believe it, and can never see how anyone could ever do that willingly to them self.

I believe that no matter what happens to one of your friends you can’t give up them. For anything they are going through, it will hurt them more if you just give up. Friends are there for you always and forever, and you need to do the same for them.

I believe that even though she still cuts every once and a while I still love her and I will never give up on her or any of my other friends. I believe friendship is something that never goes away fully. Never give up.