Have you ever wondered why parents get divorced? I do, I have always asked my self why “can’t we just be on big happy family”. Well unfortunately my big happy family did not last long enough. I would give so much just to see my mom and dad together. But maybe it was just meant to be that way for a reason. I will never really know the answer to that question but that’s what I like to think. I remember one time when my mom and dad got in a huge fight. My dad he said he was leaving to Mexico. He left for a year. To me though it felt like twenty years went by. I didn’t want him to leave his little girl behind or my little brothers. I remember hiding in the closet watching him pack all his stuff. That night I was determined to stop him from leaving. So that night I decided to grab a blanket and a pillow. I put them right next to the door. I slept there that night. I thought that if my dad saw me sleeping there trying to stop him he wouldn’t leave. I was wrong. Instead of staying he holded me in his arms and told me he loved me. He said he would always be there for me. But he was wrong, he wouldn’t really be there for me. He would only be in my heart. Every time I would wake up he wasn’t there, every time I went to bed he wasn’t there to tuck me in and give me my good night kiss. I was really young when this happened. I was about five. Look at me now I’m fithteen and I still remember what happened. Its funny how something so little but yet bug get stuck inside our memories forever. Luckily my dad came back. But he was always leaving and coming back. This really affected me and my brothers. I hated seeing my mom and dad fight. Seeing the tears on there face and on ours to as well. I just wish that we could’ve been a happy family. I wasn’t asking for a perfect family. I just wanted us to be together .I mean is that to much to ask for? I don’t believe it is. I would of loved to of had my dad guide me in life. My dad doesn’t live with me right now but he lives by me. He’s there for me and all, but it would be better if he was my side every single day. I believe we all need a mom and a dad to give us love, to give us strength, support, and especially love.
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