Walking through unfamiliar classrooms and hallways, with feelings of anxiety and confusion, I did not know why my family moved again. At the time I thought life was so unfair and that my parents were moving me on purpose, but later I would realize that there was a reason for all of the experiences in my life.
There have been many times when I wonder why there is tragedy and hurt in this world. It did not make sense to me why little children were suffering, and good people struggling. Then one day it all started making sense to me, I realized that these experiences help me grow and learn, and that there is a purpose for everything I have encountered.
My first week at college I learned something very important, I realized that everything that has happened in my life has benefitted me in some way. It felt like I could look back at everything in my life and know that there was a reason I had experienced those things. My father’s employment caused us to move every two years, forcing me to start new schools and make new friends. I am a very shy timid person and it is hard for me to step out of my comfort zone. I suffered from severe anxiety and I did not know if I was ever going to be able to leave for college. The day I moved into my apartment I did not have any of the feelings that I had when I moved into new homes. The first day of classes I felt confident and excited to meet new people and teachers. Having this new found confidence I was able to do better in school, meet a lot of new people, and I was able to enjoy learning.
When things did not go the way I wanted I got angry and confused, but without the experience of moving I would not be at college and succeeding in life. I know that when shocking things happen in my life they happen for a reason, to help me grow and learn, or to help someone else who might experience the same thing later. There is a specific plan for everyone, and I can already see my plan working in my life. With every opportunity I face I know I will be able to fit more pieces to my puzzle, and use them to help me and my family.
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