I believe in the power of friends and family. During times of need, they will be there for you. I don’t know what I would do without them. As a kid I always tended to push my family away from me. For the past two years, I pushed my friends away. Honestly, I revolved a lot of my life around one person the last two years. This was a mistake. Because of the wonderful people I know, they still stuck by my side. That’s what makes them so amazing.
I kept my distance throughout my youth. Growing up I never really talked, or asked help, from my family. I remember always seeing my sister crying in my mothers arms, and I remember thinking that I didn’t want to be like that. I hid my feeling from my parents. During hard times, I tried to never involve them. Also, I tried to never keep my friends that close to me. It seemed as though every time I turned my back, there was a stab. I started to think that people were not all that great. I started to keep my parents out of my life. It took one day to change my view on the people around me.
April 20, 2009 was the worst day of my life. A week prior to this, I had broken up with my boyfriend and temporarily moved in with a couple friends. On this particular day, he killed himself. I walked into the house to view the worst thing I have ever seen. What I witnessed will stay in my head forever, and will evermore give me heart ache. Too see someone that you love and live with has taken there own life is tragic.
The occurrences of the week following this particular day changed my view of my friends and family. I realized how wonderful people were. Everyone was there to support me. People I didn’t know were confronting me with hugs and telling me they were praying for me. His family offered me a place to stay. Friends I stopped talking to were blowing up my phone. Everyone told me if I needed anything they would be there for me. They really are. They’re helping me clean the apartment out. Their also being ears for my words, giving me letters, cards, flowers, and helping me pay the debts of the apartment. Most importantly, they’re feeding me with hope. My friends and family are incredible.
Through this experience I learned to love those who are around me. I no longer push my parents away. I no longer push my friends away. I feel love for everyone around me, and I want to hold everyone close. If it wasn’t for them, who knows what would be going on with my emotions right now. I feel cared and loved for, and during times like these it is a very important feeling to have. I learned to believe in the power that friends and family have on your life.
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