Why Are You Discouraged?

Kevin - Boston, New York
Entered on April 30, 2009
Age Group: Under 18

“Soon it shall also come to pass.”

One day, King David commanded his royal craftmen to make the most beautiful ring for him and engrave this phrase because not to be arrogant when he was victorious and encourage him when he was in despair. Because of the phrase, he never gave up, and was able to win many massive wars.

When I was a middle school student in Korea, I used to attach that phrase to my wall that was perpendicular to my desk. The reason I put that there was to encourage myself whenever I was disappointed with something that I had done badly on as a result of my idleness. At the time, I was so pessimistic that I never even believed that I had the potential to succeed. Moreover, I was not quite satisfied with my life but rather only felt emptiness in my life. When the summer approached I was just about to study for the midterm exam. However, when I tried to put all my energy into the notes that I had taken before, the scorching weather and useless thinking inside my head never let me pay attention to what I really needed to do.

Suddenly, I bounced out of the room in a huff and lay on the sofa with frustration. At the moment, I began to compare myself to others who were born with natural talent unlike me. When I kept asking myself “ Why doesn’t the world ever let me do what I want? ” something suddenly flashed across my mind. Those who have succeeded in their lives also had undergone adversities and struggled to overcome them. I felt extremely ashamed that I never did my best on what I desired but kept complaining to myself. So I began to think that even though I was not doing as well as others, I had a long-cherished dream that no one could measure. I was so proud of myself for realizing this. Similarly, I thought one cannot be successful without at least a little risk because you have to sacrifice a certain amount to reach your own goal. I believe that even if you are faced with difficult obstacles now, nothing will be impossible if you want something badly enough and you pull out all the stops.

It has been almost one year since I took the first step into my high school. As I have studied here, I’ve learned that life in high school is much harder than life in middle school. There is an enormous amount of homework assignments given by every class that I take and I barely finish my homework late at night. It is really tough and my life has become physically and emotionally hard so far. But lately I have started to encourage myself not to give up when hard moments come to me. I rest from my fatigue and trouble by looking back upon my past middle school days when I struggled with school work. This unfailing attitude has helped me to bear hardships and keep on. Tomorrow, I think I will be sitting at my desk to do my homework as always. I don’t know how much homework I will have but I won’t be afraid anymore whether or not there is a ton of homework or just a small amount. I don’t know whether it is going to be hard or not. However, I don’t think I will end up as stressed as I was the past days of middle school. Now, as a sixteen year-old high school student , I just appreciate that I realized early that I need to take a risk until I achieve my own goal, and that’s going to be helpful for me to do well in my future. So, I firmly believe that my bright future will appear someday if I live in my strong faith toward the realization of my dream