I believe there are people who love you dearly but just don’t know how to show it.
Having been together for a year and five months, my boyfriend and I argue like were married. It has been a on-and-off relationship. I guess you can say we argue everyday for stupid reasons. We argue about who we talk to; it’s a typical jealousy thing. It’s normal to be jealous, isn’t it?
Well he has many problems at home. That’s why I am guessing he may act dumb towards me. But then again when he talks to other girls, he is so nice with them. So it does make me wonder why I get treated like that. Girls who are not with him or just friends get treated better than me. He has put me through so much pain. I will tell you some things he has done and that I put up with.
It was almost summer and he and his family were in Vegas. They were not over there for long, but you wouldn’t believe what he did. For his 15th birthday I got him an Iphone, a gift that wasn’t cheap. It cost 500 dollars. So he gets back and everything is so different. He is acting strange. When he gets back from Vegas, we are still in school. That is when he tells me he doesn’t want to be with me. I am thinking, what did I do wrong? So I keep asking him why? But I don’t get an answer and finally he tells me, “I found someone else in Vegas.” I was thinking, Ok, you’re never going to see her again. So I call his mom, tell her everything, and she laughs because he is dumb. She tells me he was texting her the whole time he was over there. He used the phone I bought him to text her. That is a really messed up thing for him to do. I just don’t understand what is wrong with him.
I have made so many sacrifices for him. The many I have made is to keep hurting myself over and over. It’s not the first time he has done things that have constantly been hurting me. It has been through out the whole relationship. I have bought him so many things. It doesn’t bother me that I buy him things. But I sacrifice my money so he can have something that he wants. What do I get in return? I don’t have money so I can buy myself something nice like clothes or shoes. I don’t go places with my friends now that I am with him because if I do, it’s just argument after argument. I hardly talk to my friends now. I am not saying it’s his fault because I chose to stop going with them to places. So it’s my fault.
I am willing to stay with him because I know he does love me. He is just that guy that wants to look good in front of all his friends. At school he is the guy that treats his girlfriend like crap. And when we are at his house he is the nicest person ever. Tears running down his cheeks, he tells me “I do love you. It’s just I’m scared of getting hurt.” The reason he tells me that is because in his past relationships he has been getting hurt. I am guessing that’s why he acts the way he does. If you think about it, how he used to act compared to now, he has made a drastic change. He pays attention to me now, and does treat me nice. I guess it took him a while, well a long time, to figure out that I am not like the other girls. This is why I believe that people love you dearly, but just don’t show it.
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