You have to have faith in yourself and your family. This is what I believe. It is what guides me to do what I do. Faith is what helps me get through good and bad situations. Faith is a part of everyone, whether you believe in a god or not. Just the fact is that whatever I do, I always want to know that I have something to believe in. It is hard for me sometimes to really know that all anyone needs is a little faith to get by. I am graduating soon the exact date is June 8 of 2009. Outside I look like I am ready. Ready to grow up and get on with my career choice but inside the story is different. I am really scared and I don’t really understand why I feel the way I do, maybe just that I know I have to grow up and face that scary world and the only person who really can help is me and the only thing in me that keeps me going is my faith in myself.
Me knowing that no matter what anybody says or what they say about me behind my back I should care less for it but sometimes it is so hard to get the voices out of my head that tell me I am not smart enough to be a vet, which is my career choice. Other voices say I am only a woman and that I will only be good for a couple of things such as be a house wife. Also I am a young Hispanic woman that when I am looked at right away I am judged. It is sad that people still judge just by looking but they do. The only thing that gets me from breaking down and screaming at the top of my lungs is my faith in myself. I get to a point where I just want to give up and leave or run away and get away from everything but that would just be running away from everyone and showing that they are right. I don’t want to show anyone that, so I stay around and drag around the problems that I have out knowing that my faith will help me out of the problems that I have.
This reason I keep my faith and believe in my faith so much is because all my life, I always had someone looking down on me just because I don’t agree with what they are saying. Faith is all around me; it is the thing inside me that pushes me to my goal, the little voices that keep telling me I can do it. My faith lets me know I can make it in life, lets me know that I will be ok. It is what guides me down the right path so I will always keep my faith
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