I believe that there is very little in this world worth believing in. I know that there are things out there worth believing, but this world is reluctant to show them. Instead of broadcasting this light, it replaces it with as many small distractions as it can create, so that we never question. Lucky people become conscious of this and spend their lives clawing, questioning, and fighting for what little truths there are to be realized; half-knowing they might never be rewarded while they are here, with the exception of the few vague cliché ideas floating around. While everyone else goes on with the distractions we have built to keep our minds off of the fact that the idea this life being drained of substance is still staring us in the face. Ideas such as “time is money” and “the one with the most at the end wins” are what society tries to pass off as the truth, in an effort to buy away the only time we have alive and put it to their own personal use. I believe that these distractions are not enough for me and however much I hope, there will be little more than distractions as long as I am here.
I myself have only found two of these truths; the value of relationships and art. Without relationships to prove that we are still alive, we would be nothing more than lifeless shells slaving away at society’s command. Whether the relationship is with friends, family, God, or hopefully all of the above, it is all that I have found to be as necessary as gravity. Likewise, without art we would have no way to explain and express ourselves. Art enables us to become more than lifeless shells and to become a person.
I know that if it wasn’t for two of friends that are as close to me as family, I would never feel close to half as alive as I do today. Through music I met them, and through that expression we became as close as what I believe is humanly possible. It was living with them that I formed these ideas and discovered what it truly means to be alive. It is with them that I will continue to claw, question, and fight to stay truly alive. And it is with them that I hope to someday become a beacon of light to this bleak world.
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