This I Believe…Love

Jashini - Aurora, Colorado
Entered on March 8, 2009
Age Group: 18 - 30
Themes: love

I used to always think that I knew what my answer would be if someone were to ask me what I believe in. In this essay I was asked that question and I was very confident because I answer this question a lot until I started writing, then I realized that it was more in debt than what I truly thought it would be. I tried writing this three times before I truly knew what I believed in, Love. Love is a magical thing in this world and I think it is also a true blessing. The blessings in my life are my family, my best friend, and my boyfriend. My life would not be same nor would I be where I am now without the love of my parents, my siblings, Nikki Casey, and Treaven Welch. They have all shown me every reason why love is real, and why it is a necessity in life and something everyone should have in life.

When I first started high school my parents had just gone through a nasty divorce that was very hard on my sister, brother and I. I started rebelling and going through a very stubborn and hard stage in life. I never went to class, went out and partied with my boyfriend at the time and made tons of bad decisions. Out of those bad decisions the worst one was not seeing my dad. When my parents got a divorce I was old enough to make my own decisions according to the court and I chose to live with my mother and to never see my father. Before their divorce I was such a daddy’s girl. He was my hero and after the divorce I blamed it on him and chose to tear away from him, to never see him. Through all of that my dad still kept trying to see me, talk to me, call me, email me, keep in contact with me somehow, but I would never answer. He never gave up on me. And finally after my senior year in high school I realized that it wasn’t his fault, forgave and him, and he forgave me as well, and now I live with him. His love for me never died even through and the hate, anger, and hurtful things I said and did to him. I love my dad very much for that.

Victoria Ashley Casey, also known in my life as Nikki Casey is not only my best friend but my back bone as well. She became my friend my sophomore year in high school and has always been there for me since. She came to me in my time of need the most. She helped me get my life back on track as well as make it through the hard times that I was dealing with, with my parents, school, and of course going through the stage in life where you figure out who your true friends are. She has supported me not only emotionally but financially as well, when my mother was going through a very hard time financially, Nikki never let me feel it. I love her very much and to this day we are still best friends, the kind that have the wonderful inside jokes, go on dates together, and know each other better than anyone even if we don’t see each other every day.

And finally the other blessing in my life that I have been gifted with is Treaven Cody Welch. Treaven and I have been dating for almost a year now but we’ve known each other for about three and he’s always been a good friend to me. Right before I dated Treaven, I had an on again off again relationship with a guy that I thought I was in love with, and after we were finally done Treaven was there for me to wipe away my tears. At first to me he was just a rebound guy, a guy to pass the hurt and to and take all my anger out on. The first time that we dated I was a complete bitch to him in every way, cheated on him and took his kindness and his love for me for granted, used him, basically just did everything you aren’t suppose to do in a relationship. I hurt him really bad in every way that anyone could possibly imagine. After we broke up in July we quit talking to each other, he wanted nothing to do with me or I with him. One night when I was laying in bed reading a book it suddenly dawned on me how much he truly did love me and did everything he did for me because it made him as well as me happy. I started talking to him again and explained everything to him and of course like any other person, he wouldn’t forgive me nor take me back, but he did agree to be my friend. After three months we both realized how much we did love each other and chose to start all over again. Right now we are happily together and never been better. He lives in Vail, and I in Denver but even though we are apart we are still together at heart. I love him more than I could possibly explain to anyone else. He is my other half and has showed me multiple things in life, but most of all he showed me love.

Family, friends and my boyfriend have all showed me multiple things in life, but most importantly they all showed me the most important thing in my life. Not only that but they showed it to me in three very different ways, in their own style. They all showed me love. Now I am showing it to you. Love is the most powerful thing in this life I believe, more powerful than greed, hate,lust, holding grudges, money, anything. Love will in the end conquer us all, maybe not in the same way, but it will show somehow. In this essay I was asked what I believe in. I believe in forgiveness, second chances, education but this I truly believe in, Love.