A wise woman once told me, “Never step out with anger because it will one day be your biggest regret”. This I believe was my optimism towards the rest of my future intentions. I never really paid so much attention to what this wise woman was trying to tell me. It’s as if I was so immature to listen, yet I grew and so did my wisdom, my common sense, and my way of thinking. I’m only fifteen and a half years young, but I’ve came to understand many things in this harsh world. I learned how to speak, how to address myself, how to take advice, how to handle things, but most of all I learned how to handle the truth.
Try not to step out of the house with rage and hate; it only makes things worse. Because the minute that one steps out, anything can happen. The minute that one steps out is the minute one doesn’t think about their own actions. The minute that one steps out can also be the last minute of one’s life, or the life of another in whom one cares about. That morsel of dignity one walks out with is nothing but cowardice and failure; it’s nothing that should be taken as pride and success. The only thing supporting one to walk the line of shame is the fear of losing. However, I would rather lose than to give up. Losing doesn’t mean that one is a loser, it is actually an advantage that one could take as a strategy to only become stronger. Giving up just abates the confidence one has in possession.
Everyday, before I go to school, I try to be considerate to my family because I want to. I honestly don’t want anything to happen to them, they’re the reason I live. I would be disappointed in myself the day I was to leave the house by throwing my anger at them. I would walk out with guilt and several regrets because at this point, if anything ever happened, my last intentions would be official to either them or me. In my lifetime, I’ve lost many people, but they weren’t that close and I hardly kept in touch with them, but even then, I always think about every single one of them and how they were a part of my life. My dog wasn’t human, but he was our family pet, I remember that when he died I cried, and then I realized that crying will make no difference, I had to move on.
Someday I would like to understand why things have changed, what’s wrong and what’s right, and what’s normal. I feel saddened when I see those who give up their lives just gain a couple grains of food, while others become so ungrateful with what they already have. Sometimes I wonder why people are the way they are. I used to believe that the most valuable and precious creations in my life that I really cared about would stay with me and remain the same way forever, but it was all just a lie. I’m afraid of change and leaving the rest of my past behind.
I know that I’m capable, however, I myself has not came to fully understand what I’m capable of. There are times in our lives when we become persistent and want to show others what we can do, that’s when our inner strength reveals and with our own reliability. We achieve many of these goals just by being ambitious and motivated. Ambition and motivation, I believe, are the main keys to strive high. For all of us, that day will one day will soon come when we need to make a decision. It’s always good to be prepared because you may never know when that day comes. I suggest avoiding procrastination because dallying off with your time can eventually end in a debacle to your goals.
I believe in myself; I believe that anyone has the power to be who they want. Many people disagree, their beliefs are different than mine, but I realized that it’s okay, it’s not stopping me to achieve my biggest goals, it’s not stopping me to bring the best out of me, it really isn’t. I’ve became aware that the people who I look up to and sincerely care about think different than me. But that doesn’t mean I’m alone or fully supported, and if I was then so be it. All I need is my courage and determination to be something; I won’t let others daunt me so I can become deliberate. I’m not going to wait and hope for a change. With hope, I only wish, but I want to be!
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