The Instant Desirable Quality
It would have been like any other day in June that one afternoon. But there was something special about to happen this particular day.
My wife came out of the bathroom in our house holding a pregnancy test. We both watched for the sign on the indicator to show us what our future was about to bring. I knew I wanted to be a father. I had prayed about it a lot and my wife and I had talked and prayed together about it as well and both decided that it felt like it was time to start our family.
Then it came, YES! We were excited.
You always think that at this moment in your life that the feelings you have are ones of tremendous excitement; hugging, laughing, maybe some high fives or knuckles. But even though all those feelings were there, I had a few more start to creep into my mind. Things like; am I going to be a good father, will I learn to have enough patience, will I be able to provide for this little innocent child who is going to rely on me for everything. I know I will love them. But when will it happen and how much?
Now it was time to start getting things ready, and it was a busy job. We started purchasing some important things like diapers, wet-wipes, onesies and outfits, cribs, strollers, and carseats to name a few. Oh, and did I mention DIAPERS.
Well we were pretty sure that we had enough things to at least be ready for the baby to come. And with all of that out of the way you would think that I would be stress-free. But I wasn’t, I always had those thoughts in the back of my mind.
I would try to think back to when I was younger and see if I could remember some lessons my parents were trying to teach me. They would tell me that the reason why they made the decisions that they did for me were always answered my the usual, “It’s because we love you and want what’s best for you.” I didn’t fully understand that until that special day in February.
It was about 7:00 a.m. when my wife’s contractions were strong enough that we decided it was time to go to the hospital. As time went on I knew it was getting closer to when my questions will have to be answered. Then finally at 2:30 p.m. on the Fourth of February 2006 Brynnlee Farley was born. She had brown hair, dark blue eyes, ten fingers, ten toes, and very healthy lungs, she used them a lot. She was perfect! I wouldn’t let her go, I held her in my arms for hours and just watched her. I was able to witness one of life’s great miracles.
Right then and there, from the first time I held her, I knew that everything was going to be just fine. I knew I had enough patience, could provide my family with the things that will be important. But most of all, I had an instantaneous and abundant supply of unconditional love for this little girl. And I believe this is one the few qualities that come almost immediate.
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