I have had my life planed out since I was in 5th grade; go to California for college, become a dancer in L.A, and never come back home. A lot has changed since then, but I have yet to let go of my college plans. There are just three things standing in my way…my siblings. I am the oldest of four. Catherine is 14, my little brother Brock is five and my baby sister Lacie is five months. Then there is me, 18 and about to leave for college. Just thinking about college makes me have butterflies in my stomach and a million thoughts running through my head. But the one thing that keeps popping up in my decision making process is my siblings.
When I leave in about six months my worry is missing them grow up. I don’t want to miss the first day of high school, the kindergarten programs, and the first footsteps. Well, to be honest, my biggest fear is that they will forget me. I have horrible visions of me coming home from college and Lacie not knowing who I am, not knowing she has an older sister. I am scared Brock will forget me, acting shy and reserved. I’m afraid Catherine will feel I abandoned her right when she needed an older sister.
Then I see Lacie smile. I feel the hugs Brock gives me. I hear Catherine laugh. These actions reassure me that love will conquer all. Love conquers time, distance and age. Love is the only glue that will keep us together. Love tells me that Lacie will always know her best babysitter. Brock will never forget his play mate and Catherine will never feel far apart from her first friend. I see love in its purest form through my siblings. I feel that deep inside there is an unbreakable attachment with each of them. Stepping back and realizing this, I know that no matter where I end up next year I will have the love of my siblings. Looking at them I believe that love conquers all.
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