I believe my life is pointless. Allow me to explain. Earlier in the year I was thinking of what I should major in as I continued on to college. I enrolled in college as an international studies major, but a few weeks into it I realized that I didn’t want to pursue that degree. I think a big reason for my not liking it was that people would ask me what I could do with that degree and I couldn’t give them a good answer.
So I started to think about what makes me happy, what makes me feel strong, and what makes me feel like I’m pleasing my God. For a long time I couldn’t think of any strengths and the few things that I could think of at the time that made me happy seemed as if they couldn’t be molded into a field of study or a career.
I contemplated this for weeks; and jumped between everything from business to the medical field to teaching but I couldn’t really decide upon which direction I wanted to head towards. I would soon lose interest in my classes and my homework because all I could think about was what my life should become.
Then one night I was watching the Colbert report when he had a guest from United Nations talking about his new campaign. Nothing but Nets it was called. I thought it was about basketball; one of the few things I could honestly say made me happy. I found out it was not about basketball at all, but it was an organization raising money to put up mosquito nets in Africa to help prevent malaria, which is one of leading diseases in Africa. I went on the website and read the information, it seemed legitimate.
I decide to buy one net for the price of ten dollars. I had the money at the time and ten dollars was not that bad anyways. An image popped up on the screen and said congratulations you just helped saved someone’s life.
At first I thought nothing of those words, but as the day went on those words kept repeating in my head. I realized how good it felt to read those words; my day had changed from black and white to hi-def. It made me feel happy. I realized that is what I always loved, making other people happy. Whether I help them out with moving, homework, or just make them laugh, it makes me feel good.
So in my eyes my life is pointless…. Unless I can help others, this I believe.
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