I believe that not knowing what to expect can bring about positive change and great happiness. There is a certain motive behind change that sends a message to a person. This message can affect this person’s life in many ways. It can alter that person’s personality and maturity as well. For example, this past summer on August 17th at 7:58pm my First son Joseph Jordan Grana was welcomed into this world. Going back earlier into this year, I was first informed that I was going to have a baby from my girlfriend this past February. The emotion of fear spread throughout my entire body when I first heard that news. Thoughts upon life suddenly seemed over, emotions of fear and anger mixed and I had no clue how to look into the future anymore. It felt as if all my life long plans were over and my goals seemed near impossible to reach. I had no idea what was left in life to come for me.
When that day of august 17th came I was awoken around eight thirty in the morning to my girlfriend telling me that her water had broke. As soon as she told me that, I knew it was that time and that my life was about to change forever. Sitting in the hospital room waiting anxiously as she was in labor, all I could think about was what was to come. What emotions I am going to feel, how I am going to look at everything in life from now on. At 7:58pm it happened. My first son was born and welcomed into this world. My girlfriend looked at me and said that he looked just like me. We then decided to name him Joseph. When I saw him for the first time tears ran down my face. I was overwhelmed with joy and excitement. Then something had hit me. To this day I still don’t know exactly what that something was but I have a pretty clear idea that that something was the feeling of love.
When that something had hit me it sparked a life changing affect upon my personality and maturity. At that very moment I grew up inside and started realizing how I am going to live my life from now on. It changed me into a better person to everyone around me. I started looking at the little things in life such as love and care and began to appreciate its true meanings and importance. I began to appreciate the role that love plays in a person’s life and how it can make or break a relationship and now a family. I care for everyone close to me with all the love and care that I posses and I never let them down. Since my son has been born, I have changed into a better boyfriend towards my girlfriend as I always put her first before anything and give her what she wants and deserves to make her the happiest girl in this world. She means everything to me, so I do everything in my power to make her smile. I have changed as now I am a father. I have done the best I can with what I have to be the best father I can. I provide for him the love and care that he needs and the simple necessities such as diapers and toys as well because I want to be the best father in this world. My goal is to hear him tell me that I am the best. That will make my life complete. It is as if since that very moment of me seeing him for the first time, my direction in life and my personality has changed 100 percent. It has changed for the better for not just everyone around me, but for me as well. I love how this new change is affecting me. It is a feeling too amazing to put into words.
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