A few weeks ago, I suffered an amazing loss. A wonderful young lady walked out of my life forever. She had been waiting for her “sweetheart” to come home from a foreign land. In the process of waiting, she took the opportunity to date many other young men in order to better establish her expectations for her future husband. I was one of the young men. The closeness and intimacy that we shared was something that I had never experienced. The energy that we possessed when we were together was fantastic. However, almost as fast as our relationship had started, her waiting period was up. Faster than I could even say goodbye, she flocked to her “sweetheart” on his return, leaving me in the dusty wake of despair. I felt as if my body had shut down all blood flow to my heart, which caused my heart to ache unceasingly for days. She never called back. She just left. This sounds like a terrible story of sadness and unfair circumstances, but on the contrary, I have come to learn for myself that love truly can be found in the world. However, I didn’t find it in this story, and I am yet to find it in my life so far. I have hope for a better day when I will finally know what it is like to be in love. I almost tasted it with this young lady, but in my mind, I was not ready. Love, for me, is hard to find. But attaining hope is the necessary precursor to attaining love. I have found that hope. There is only one thing left to find
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