Time to Say Goodbye
I believe in letting go and starting over.
I have always had a tendency to hang on to the past and dwell on things that I cannot change. A couple of years ago, though, I realized that it’s impossible to enjoy life if you can’t learn to move forward and leave the past behind you. You miss out on once in a lifetime opportunities if you’re unable to move on from what’s come and gone. Until about two years ago, I was unable to let go of the life I had before I moved to Texas, and I had to learn the hard way that sometimes you just have to let the past go.
Before moving to Texas I lived in Oklahoma, and for the first time I was attending a real school instead of being homeschooled. I had made several really good friends, which I never had when I was homeschooled. I thought I was adjusting to my new school pretty well, and in general I was happy with the way things were. But after only five years of living in Oklahoma, my dad got news that our family was going to have to move because of his job. I was used to moving around every two years or so because of my dad’s job, but I had never been so affected by it before. I was depressed and miserable, but above all I was angry. I was finally making friends and actually enjoying myself, and we had to move away. It was unfair. I didn’t want to have to start all over and try to make new friends and adjust to such a drastic change.
And it was hard. My first year at school in Texas was one of the most difficult years of my life. However, despite the initial pain of the move and trying to get used to living in a brand new city, I believe that it’s only made me a better person overall. As I’ve grown and matured, I’ve realized that I needed a change. It was time for me to move on, even if I didn’t know it at the time. My friends in Oklahoma were there for me when I needed them, and I just didn’t need them anymore. And now I’ve finally come to terms with that.
As a result of my move, I was able to basically start a new life and explore new opportunities. I got more involved in things I really enjoy doing, and I’ve made quite a few new friends, more than I ever had in Oklahoma. I’ve changed into someone I never thought I would become. I’m still learning and figuring new things out, but looking back at what I’ve been through, I am genuinely glad that I got a chance to start over.
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