I believe in Natural Human’s ability

Son - sacramento, California Vietnam
Entered on October 29, 2008
Age Group: 18 - 30
Themes: family

I believe in Human’s ability which is potential in each person whether we have received them or not.

Most of my relatives and close people I know said that I really resemble my father. Actually I am not proud of this; anyway I reject to be like that and avoid answering questions about my father. My emotion for my Dad hadn’t ever grown up for 18 years of living with him; I had thought that I would never love him. But just one year living far away from my family I have to change my thinking and try to empathize to my father.

I believe nothing is too late if you give up your entire endeavor. As my mother taught me, no matter what I must respect my father and whatever he did. She is a good example for me to follow. Especially her inner characters are really good that I couldn’t see in others women. I would respect her all my life, not my father. Here is the truth about my family.

I was born in the family with 5 members. I am the eldest brother of one younger sister and one younger brother. We grew up without the love of our father or because we were not recognized that. Or we all have a big resentment to him. My father is really hot-tempered and he has not done the duty of a father. But my mother always says to us “each people have a different way to show your love and my father also”. At that time I tried to believe my Mon but my father didn’t prove that to me. I just saw in him many bad habits and I think he was not a responsible person. He broke my nice childhood down instead take care of me or talk to me more. I really need and crave for that love but I can’t have. I am so afraid of him every time he get drunk and go back home. His violent temper was not acceptable. My mother had tried to advise him many times but he didn’t hear any words. They were fighting, arguing many problems but they didn’t know at that time their children (me) are crying because of them. I know that my mother has suffered my Dad too much although she didn’t do anything wrong. Some of her friends, my aunt, even my grandmother suggested my mother should divorce with my father. But she didn’t do that because of us. She said that she believes in the forgiveness and my father might change himself when he looking back the things he did. No matter how, he always be my father that I couldn’t change. I feel I love my mother more than I can say. How much I love my mother as that much I hate my father.

Now I am still keeping in touch with my father. He sometimes calls and talks to me more. He might understand everything and he is trying to make a good relationship between Dad and Son. I wonder why he didn’t realize early, just when I go away from him. I don’t care and of course I will open my heart to welcome him again. I believe the natural personality of the people will be more and more getting honest by the time. My father is an example, I learn from my hurt in my childhood. I think now I already know how to make my family is closer than before.