I Believe in Me
I believe in me. For as long as I can remember I have spent my days worrying about what I should wear, if this pink matches that pink or if I can pull off this zebra print tank top with this skirt. I have spent countless hours wondering if I have the make-up and the jewelry to match what I have finally decided to wear. How am I going to style my hair, and will people actually like what I have decided to wear, are two questions that I ask myself daily. Listening to the astounding words of India Arie’s song, Strength, Courage, and Wisdom made me realize I am none of these things. I am me. Her song states…..Inside my head there lives a dream that I wanna see in the sun, behind my eyes, there is a me that I’ve been hiding for too long. Cause I’ve been too afraid to let it show cause I’ve been scared of the judgment that may follow. Always putting off my livin’ for tomorrow. These words made me realize I am not made of the material things I spend my precious moments worrying about. I am not the Dereon tank top I wore to school last week, I am not the Baby Phat jeans I wore to work yesterday, and I am definitely not the Nike boots that I just bought for this winter. I am much more than what is to be seen on the outside. What people do not see is that I am a Psychology major who loves to play soccer. I am a soon to be aunt that obsesses over what color my niece or nephews nursery will be. I have been scared from death but learned from the many mistakes I have made in life. I am quite because of insecurities but loud in my beliefs. I have experienced love and pain that has made me confident that I am strong. These are the things that make me who I am and this I believe.
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