I believe that everyone has someone watching over them. I have always been a very trusting person, I’ll believe just about anything someone tells me. However, I never really believed in the more common fantasies such as Santa Claus, or the Easter Bunny, I always believed in the bigger, things people wouldn’t normaly consider. I have a very imaginative mind, and if I believe it to be true, I can make it true.
When I was little, I had this very close attachment to the TV show Sailor Moon, I looked up to the main character and wanted to be just like her. I grew my hair out as long as I could, and even attempted to make my own costume. She was like an older sister to me, and since I was an only child, that was a big deal. But then one day my dad said I could no longer watch the show, he said that God didn’t like it, and it was a bad show. My whole world seemed to shatter before me. It was as though he had just murdered her right in front of me, and I couldn’t do anything about it. In my eyes, Sailor Moon, was dead.
Many years later, I went to a camp with my church, forced, of course, by my dad. I was angry, I didn’t want to go. But, at that camp I discovered something. My dad was a liar. God didn’t hate Sailor Moon, there was nothing wrong with the show. In fact, in the original Japanese version of the show, the main character was a Christian. And now, at learning this, it was as though she had been with me all along. Like a guardian angel. By my side, protecting me, keeping me safe, and encouraging me to do the best I could.
Now, even to this day, I believe that she remains with me as that angel. She is still right by my side protecting me, even now, right this moment. I can see her clearly if I just close my eyes and imagine. I know, it sounds very unreal. But it is something that I want to believe, even if it really isn’t true and it’s all just some nostalgic childhood story I’ve made up in my mind. It brings me comfort to believe.
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