When I was three my parents got a divorce. Even though, I was only three and can barely remember it, it still had an effect on me. I can remember having to go back and forth between my parents. My dad lived 3 hours away from me. When I left him I would cry each time. It tore me apart and I know it did for him too.
My mother was single for a long time and raised my sister and I on her own. We never had much and I never really saw her. She worked three jobs to support my sister and I. My sister, who was only a high school student, is the one that really took care of me. And I thank her.
As I was growing up I never really had a dad like figure around. I mean, yes, I would see him occasionally on the weekends. It was never enough though. My mom also got remarried a few times. But they were never dad like. They didn’t care. It effected my life allot. Not that I’m a bad kid or anything. But the dads are usually the ones that disciplined and helped shape your life.
I learned to be independent fast though. I never had much and I learned that if I wanted something I had to earn it. It’s a good thing because I don’t rely on other people. I love both my parents equally. And I give my mother props for bending over to do anything for my sister and I. I guess I always wondered what the feeling was to have a dad there for whenever you needed him. Like when you don’t get along with your mom and you could always run to daddy. To have him push you into sports and activities. To have actual family events and dinners. To go to those little daddy daughter dances. And for him to see you go on dates and your first dance. It might not seem like it matters, but It does.
Sometimes it is really hard for me. I just want to know what it feels like. It really taught me that when I am old enough to have kids to make sure they do have a father figure in there life. To make sure you want to spend the rest of your life with that certain someone before I marry him. I do believe that all kids need a father and that it does change a way a kid is brought up. I also think that when you do become a parent, no one should have to do it on their own. It takes two.
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