I believe that the Holy trinity has made me the man I am today and that without it I will never reach my full potential in life.
In what seems like another life I was living to see how “high” I could get. My desire to see how great I could feel consumed me. It got to where I felt like I couldn’t function unless I was high. I was buying weed everyday and always trying to figure out how to get harder drugs. Chasing the high eventually started costing me everything. I never went to class, I started hating my family, and I didn’t care about anyone or anything.
One night when I was especially high it hit me just how much damage my habit had done to me. My addiction was taring apart my family and I had become just another burnout student with no future. I thought I was going to end up dead or destroying everything I once cared about. I broke down crying because I hated what I had become. I wanted to change but didn’t know how. I have never felt more scared, helpless, and alone in my entire life, so I did the only thing I could think of, I prayed. I told God that I hated everything about myself and I wanted to get better. That night I made a deal with God. I asked him to give me a second chance at life and in return I promised that I wouldn’t waste it.
It didn’t take long for me to forget that night and my deal with God but he didn’t forget. God started working immediately. Around the same time God brought a girl into my life. She was really fun to hang out with but had a different lifestyle from everyone I knew. The more I hung out with her and her sober friends, the more I realized I enjoyed it and began to want to quit drugs and work on living a better life.
God used her to get me to believe that I could actually stop all the stuff I was doing. The next thing God used her for was to introduce me to the foundational believe: There is a God and his son, Jesus, did something monumental. I began reading the Bible with her and on my own. My favorite part of the story was Jesus’ ability to forgive people. I went with her to check out the most boring club ever created, a church. To my surprise I found that when I worshiped it was like getting high, naturally.
I was a fuck-religion skeptic and I believe in God, his son and power because no other belief has made my life better, makes more sense, challenges me to new heights, or seems worth my time. This belief has given me the power and confidence to rise above the corruption my life had fallen into. I thank the Father every day for giving me a second chance. I thank the son for dieng for my sins, and last but not least, I thank the Spirit for keeping me on the right path.
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