This I Believe

I believe that words and thoughts are powerful. I believe that we should be careful what we say and think especially when speaking of ourselves. Negative thoughts paralyze our action. Our action dictates our life. But this action is preceded by thought. When I decide to workout the exercises are easy and the time goes by fast. When I worry about the time it will take, or resting, or other chores, I end up doing something else entirely and feel guilty for missing the workout.

I believe that knowing only one language can limit your ability to express what you want fully.

I think often about the many times I said out loud or too myself, I can’t. Those are the times I failed. I also think about the times I thought, I can and during these times I failed and succeeded evenly. I think most about the few times I thought I will, and those are the times I succeeded.

When I was younger, I wanted to be a visual artist because my mother was a gifted artist. Unfortunately, I truly believed that I lacked talent and the best I could produce was sad stick figures. I had such a strong desire to be an artist, I surrounded myself with people who had the talent I wanted. Nine out of ten friends were visual artists. It wasn’t until after I graduated college that I decided, that I will be an artist. I began teaching myself. I willed the gift into reality.

I believe that fear is what limits most of us from willing our happiness. I can count on my hands the things that I willed into reality– a job at a gym when I was overweight, a year at the law school of my choice, yoga lessons, a loving husband, a job as a teacher, and smart healthy children despite having to take a dangerous medicine during both pregnancies.

I am currently again looking at willing my reality. Thus, this is not just a statement of belief but a prayer. These are the next things I will–a paying job as a writer, size six pants and flat abs, a unique schedule, a great school in Baltimore for my kids that I can afford, more quality time with my husband, and the ability to chose not only my words carefully but my thoughts.