Sometimes in life certain feelings just take over my mind. It is almost like I completely forget about anything important to me and any morals I may have. I go into this state of mind and feel somewhat worthless. I don’t know if it is from past experiences or maybe a developed way of thinking. There has been only one thing to help me overcome overwhelming depressive state. It is the fact that only I can change the quality of my life. No one can do it for me.
I have been studying different viewpoints on life. I’m still learning right now, and I will be for the rest of my life. What I have learned though, is very wise. It is not easy to apply to my actual life though. It will take time for me to work these beliefs into my life. I have so many negative thoughts and happenings to overcome first. My past experiences have brought so much confusion and hurt to my current state of mind. Sometimes I just feel like giving up, and that is when I have to stop and take a breath. I have to look around and see all the good things in my life and appreciate them. There are so many emotions and feelings that get in the way, but I just need to remember to love.
I believe I attract everything to myself whether it is negative or positive. I believe everyone does. I feel that I am lucky to have found this way of living, and I hope anyone who figures it out will not take it for granted. I can control the rest of my life if I put my mind to it. I will attract great things to myself and the ones I love if and only if I have a happy, positive outlook on life. If a person sulks and complains everyday and thinks their life is absolutely horrible, than they are going to attract negativity to their life. It will never go away. It will just be a continuous cycle. Fortunately, anyone is capable of bringing themselves out of a deep, dark hole. If I don’t want to be happy, then I won’t.
Time is the key word here. Anything is possible with time. Anyone can be happy with time, but does time exist? Is there even such thing as time? Time seems to make everyone rush for tomorrow. What about now? We are all living such incomplete lives because we are so stuck on our futures. In your future, there will be nothing to remember about your past if you don’t live for today. Look around and see what you have. Love it and appreciate it. You only have so much time. No one knows when their time will end.
There is one pure thing that will lead anyone to happiness. It is love. Love is infinite and has no limits. I believe that every single person is capable of love. Some may have a hard time finding it, but it is possible. Sometimes the people around you will try their hardest to bring you down. People only hurt each other to feel better about themselves. They won’t admit it most of the time, but it is the truth. They just have not found love and harmony yet.
Happiness is all about finding yourself—finding out who you truly are inside. It is not about your environment and what is going on around you. It may seem like it, but happiness is not material objects. You cannot find happiness with money, and you cannot find happiness with a brand new car or house. There will always be the emptiness inside until you find out who you are. That is the most important thing in life. You are the most important person in your life.
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