Where I Need to Be

Mary - Palatine, Illinois
Entered on May 19, 2008
Age Group: 18 - 30

What do I believe?

In this grand firmament, the answer amounts to nothing; it will no where, prove nothing, and be forgotten quickly by the vast memory of the universe.

But at the same time, it is the only answer that can matter, that can affect me and that will. Because, in my life, the only aspect of this existence I’ll ever know, what I believe defines everything. It creates the shapes and colors of my experiences, formats the depth of my thought oceans and the breadth of my dream skies. My beliefs are what give meaning to my name, give soul to my body, and brought words to this page.

So I believe in me. I believe in the power I have over myself. I believe that I am the only person under my control, and that that isn’t something that should frustrate me. I believe that, just as I cannot force anyone else to live a life I want for them, I do not have to live a life set for me by any other human being as limited as myself. If I wanted to, I could work at the Renaissance Faire hawking fine jewelry in iambic pentameter, and then wake up one day and become a construction worker, and no human being could stop me. They may prevent any of my conventional attempts, but if I really wanted to, I could make the door to walk through.

And I believe in you. I don’t know who you are, and I never will. You’re reading these words, and only you know what they mean to you, because your beliefs have defined them, just like mine have. So I believe we’re reading different words. I believe that every book is different not only for every person who has read it, but for every time he has reread it, because every new word will find him changed, and every new change will make a new word.

I believe that it’s taken me a while to get to this place where I can safely say I’m perpetually in states of both complete self-contentment and self-realignment, and I believe that these new beliefs, whether they last me the rest of my life or not, will shape who I am today, tomorrow, and forever, because I believe it, and that’s all that matters.

I believe.

“And that has made all the difference.”