How I’m able to Live Life Twice
When I open my wallet today and see $52.00; my life savings, how can I be so
happy? Acceptance of my disease has given me a second chance at life. Alcoholism and
drug addiction took almost everything from me, however through acceptance; I’ve been
giving a second chance at living with a whole new outlook on each and every day.
I’m 47 years old and thought I knew everything. I grew up in a great household-
mother and father, graduated from a great high school, had excellent careers; umpired in
baseball, manager in sales, basically I had it all. Alcohol and cocaine, in no particular
order were my drugs of choice. On a good day I used, on a bad day I used, if it ended in
day I used. I had no problem I always told myself, it was someone else who had the
problem, not me.
So as my life spiraled out of control, the arrests, the fines, the failures, the lying,
the cheating, the stealing where was I going? Somehow God introduced me to Chaplin
Jim Proos and he introduced me to God. Now I don’t consider myself religious, however
I am truly a very spiritual person because I understand today I run nothing. Only my
higher power runs the show and what I try to do today is show and help others that if I
can change so can they. Change is all around us, it’s that one constant.
Since December 26th, 2005 I’ve been sober and I’m so grateful that I can share a
small portion of my story. This is being written so I can help someone else who might be
struggling in their addiction and maybe give them a second chance like the one I’ve been
so freely given. Remember, we came to believe that we were powerless over alcohol,
that our lives became unmanageable. This is the first step of Alcoholics Anonymous,
which is a great recovery program. I’ve found it to be a pretty simple program, they tell
to change one little thing, EVERYTHING.
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