It is hard for me to believe that there is a heaven and a hell. Sometimes it is hard for me to believe there is a God. These trials are supposed to make us stronger but what is the ultimate out come? What are we really living for? Is this life just a test for something else? Are we the only universe that God has created? There are to many what ifs to really believe everything 100%. I don’t believe in the Bible. I believe in the moral teachings that have been instilled in me about what is wrong and what is right because who really follows the Bibles teachings 100%. I believe in God because he is that something to believe in and if I did not believe in him it would be hard to give a reason to live.
I believe that God does have a purpose. No matter what happens in our life we are able to lean on that crutch that God does have a purpose for our lives but in believing God has a purpose we should not push all of our blame onto him. I believe he guides us in the direction that he wants us to go. Sometimes we do make the wrong decisions but what would our lives be if we are always wondering what if I would have taken that job what if I wouldn’t have gotten married. God is able to put these trials in front of us and by his teachings we make our decisions. Every time I do get knocked back down I feel like I am able to get back up because I know in my heart that there is a reason for every trial.
I believe that everyone at one point or another loses their faith. We use God to justify the good and the bad things in our life. God is punishing me because I had sex with my boyfriend or he thinks I’m better because I waited. It’s hard for us to justify any other explanation as it is what we have been raised with. Most of our society has come to the conclusion that God will always forgive. Even under circumstances such as committing adultery.
For those who believe in the rapture and that God will take the “true” believers I can not help but shake my head. The God that I believe in believes in me and is going to see through all of these so called “Christians” and when the Earth finals is used up and life stops living, even my life, he will know by my heart that I felt the relationship with him. Not forcing others to believe the mask that many put on or putting on a fake façade that deem many in the eyes as “holy”. What really matters to me is that I had a personal relationship with him and to me that, in my heart, is all that matters.
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