You should never stay in one place too long.
You may grow too large for it.
You may know more then was intended to know.
It will become too much a part of you.
It is then that you must work up your courage
And leave this comfort place. End up somewhere new.
I firmly believe everyone should practice forgiveness.
It is more than a statement.
You can say you have forgiven.
But it is much more.
Forgiveness is a process.
It may take your mind to go through a fast
And your body to go through a raw nudeness of emotions
Your body will have to smother itself with warm clothes
While you lay alone in a tent in the icy woods
With nothing around you except your shames
It may take all of that just to understand
To know what it feels like to carry the burdens
Like a rock plunging into you and weighing down your body
Scraping you slowly into the earth
Then, you can accept what has happened
But do not try to change it.
Using your greatest gifts that I know you possess
You just may not want to believe them
They could be your smile.
Your beautiful shining smile that is
Like a force that carries people to you
They could be your self-righteousness
The fire inside of you that you may be scared to unleash
They could be as simple and silly as your inner dork
But take these gifts, and put them
In place of the shame.
You have the power to throw the rock.
I believe your past, your struggles, they
Make you stronger and the person you can be
I believe you should write down your dreams.
Remember what twisty tours your mind goes on
I believe you should write a letter to yourself, or
Your old self
I believe you should read and read more
Until you can find part of yourself
In something you read.
And then keep reading.
Really, I believe in screaming for help,
If you can not ask for it
That is better then harming yourself.
Creating a cycle of fire that is fierce, but comfortable
And hard to let go of, but hated at the same time
Never trap yourself in that cycle
Like the wars I will never fight
And the silhouettes I will never hide or hate
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