This I Believe

Weihua - Syracuse, New York
Entered on January 25, 2008

This I believe: I believe I am not living for my self.

Life is not easy.

We all have various difficulties in our lives. Pressure from work. Financial difficulty, complicated relationship, health problems and so on.

Different people have different difficulties in their lives.

I bet most of us will not hesitate to say: Life is not easy.

You may always hear that some one kill him or herself from the news.

Life seems so hard for those people that they even want to end their lives.

When I see news like that I feel sorry for them, at the same time, they also remind me my belief deep down in my heart: I am not living for myself.

I had a very tough time several years ago, I remembered once I told my mum that my life is meaningless that I do not want to live any more.

She cried and said: How can you be so irresponsible to say that? You are not living for yourself !

Her words wake me up.

She is right.

As a son, I should live for my parents. No matter what I am, I am still their hope.

As a elder son in the family, I should live for my younger brother to be his role model.

As a student, I should live for mastering some useful skill to serve our society.

As someone’s beloved, I should live just for making her happy.

As so many people’s friend, I should live positively and offer my help as much as I can to

those who need it.

Life just has so many meanings that everyone should know that you are not living for yourself.

Recently I saw news from the web that a Chinese PhD student in Hong Kong University killed himself because his advisor left for another job in the US and left him

two choices. One is to graduate as a master student. The other is to quit to find a job or find another professor as his advisor. Just because he tried and did not find a job, he committed a suicide.

Look at this, I feel so pittiful. If he has the same belief as I have, he will be OK. Why? Because I had the very similiar experience! My former advisor left with a short notice last May left me with the same two choices. Now I am in Syracuse university, happily doing my PhD study! Why? Because I believe I am not living for myself! By reminding me this when I have bad thing come, I will try my best to find a solution!