This I Believe

Julie - Harrisonburg, Virginia
Entered on December 3, 2007

This I Believe

I believe in that tomorrow is always a new day. Personally, I have experienced countless ups and downs in my life, but no matter any occurrence that may take place, and no matter how simple it could be to give up, things will always improve.

John was a 21-year-old friend of mine, who had the world in the palm of his hand. He was the type of person who could walk into a room of strangers and come out with tons of new friends. Not only did he have endless amounts of friends, but he also had the ability to brighten up the room with his smile, humor, and charisma. However, not many people, including myself, knew what John was hiding in the inside. There was a lot of stress and pain built up under the surface. Unfortunately, this pressure that he felt was too much for him to deal with, and all of his inner issues boiled over. John, sadly, ended his own life just a couple of months ago, leaving us all with the sense of loss, abandonment, and, overall, lingering questions.

The tragic loss of John has been quite a challenge. I could compare coping with his loss to breaking a major leg bone. Initially, I felt excruciating pain. After that, with the help of professionals, I felt that throbbing all over again to ultimately be reset correctly, as I would in surgery to fix the broken leg. With time, I have been gradually healing with additional therapy, like physical therapy, and recognize it will take time to completely be back to normal, but I will in fact walk again. Furthermore, I am aware that when it rains, there will still be an ache. Overall, through this experience, I have believed in that tomorrow is always a new day. I just wish John would have been able to realize this before he made such a rational decision.

Through John’s death, I have constantly been reminded that life is a gift and a privilege. Life is also a lesson and no matter what terrible things may take place, it is just preparing us for what may come in the future. But the key thing I believe in and remember is that there is a future, and tomorrow is always a new day.