This I Believe

As I write this, I am in the process of making a major decision in my life. Pursue my career as a local TV reporter, working to literally move up the ladder or pack up and move back home to be with my family in LA.

A two time cancer surviver, My father recently turned 60, and my discontent, mother who worked day and night for minimum wage, just to put food on the table will turn 56 this year. THey are in LA.

My Tv career brought me to Wisconsin and I live my life missing my parents every day. I love them both immensley but at the same time, I often feel torn, obligated, and responsible when I’m around them. It’s amazing how love can also make you feel insecure.

We immigrated from Korea in 1980 and my dad always reminds me that this is the land of opportunity, a land where I can fulfill any dream I have.

Today, my parents are certainly proud of me and they brag about me to their friends, saying “my daughter is on tv.” So I feel a lot of pressure to succeed.

But it didn’t take long for me to realize that the news business is not as glamorous as it seemed and before I knew it, I grew homesick. However, I could never muster up enough courage to quit, because I thought I was pleasing my parents, and making them happy by being “on tv.”

Now I am contemplating whehter or not this career is worth the sacrifices I’m making. I am constantly reminded of that famous quote, “on their death bed, no one says to themselves, i wish i had spent one more day at the office.”

Every day I think to myself, what if something happens, what if one of them dies and it’s too late? Plus I miss being with them.

So I am contemplating going home to be with my mom and dad. I might spend some time re-examining my talents to see what else I can do with my talents.

But it won’t be hard to figure out, when I’m with surrounded by my family.

For even though they make me cry all the time, it is in the arms of their dsyfunctional love where I usually find inspiration.

I BELIEVE their love, with all it’s flaws and foibles, will help me discover my true passion in life. I BELIEVE their love is my life.