This I Believe

Jessica - Cave Creek, Arizona
Entered on May 15, 2007

“If it is only dark, know that the light will soon return.” This quote has had great effect on my life lately. Even though it is from a preschool wall in Flagstaff, Arizona, its profound ability to speak to me is never changing. I firmly believe that even in your life’s hardest times, looking to the positive side can make everything better. Having a good attitude makes a world of difference on your outlook on life. Have you ever experienced a time, when all you wanted to do was crawl in a dark hole and disappear? Or felt like there was absolutely no reason to go on with your life, and maybe even considered ending it? Well, next time you are in a position like those, I urge you to reconsider it. I may have only had eighteen years of prior experience, but my experiences have been many.

Just this year, I learned this even further, from a classmate of mine. I had only had a few conversations with this kid beforehand, but they were few and far between. Up until one Tuesday in late April, when he asked for my opinion on some problems he was facing. He had been having personal issues with his ex- fiancée, and just found out that she had miscarried. The depression of both the loss of his girlfriend, and the loss of his child had taken a large toll on him. The very next day, his ex delivered him even worse news that she was filing for a restraining order. Now, yes, I fully admit this boy had encountered many other problems; both mentally and physically in the past years. However, knowing someone that closely, and what they are going through, you maybe would reconsider? Perhaps not.

That afternoon, I received a message on my cell phone; telling me what a good person I am, and thanking me for the advice. However, hoping that I had greatness in my future, and if I ever see Sarah again, to tell her that David loved her. Then it was silent, and all I heard was his breathing on the other line. A small voice said ‘goodbye Jessica…’ and the phone clicked shut. I continued to call the number back numerous times, but only received voicemail. The next morning at school I heard through the grapevines, that he had overdosed on over-the-counter meds, and was unconscious in the hospital. I was the only person he had called.

Realizing what an impact I had made on this kid’s life, really taught me to appreciate what you have. Know, that even though it might seem like your life is crashing down at once, everything will be better soon. How could one eighteen year old be in this kind of position? How could someone feel that low, to the point where they take over 40 various pills found in their parents medicine cabinet? How could they think that killing themselves at such a young age would make it all better? That they had absolutely no other reason for living, and their future did not matter, graduation did not matter, senior prom did not matter…how is that even possible? Well no matter how many times you ask yourself this question, it doesn’t change the fact that yes, it is possible. Lending an ear to listen to people does make a difference in their lives, and being a good friend means more than someone to go to parties with. This I believe, that when the clouds are covering your sun, hang in there, because that light will soon return. Even in your hardest times, realize it will soon be over, and without misery there would be no happiness. Be strong, and remember that at night time, the sun is just taking a nap…but it will be there for you the very next day, waiting to shine on you and bring you and your life much needed happiness, this I believe.