I believe we write because we have to
Whenever I was young and I would get into a fight with my mom I would write her a letter and apologize to her for all the things I had done to wrong her. I would tell her everything I could not say to her face. I was scared of my older brother because he was bigger, stronger, and angry, so I would never talk back to him when he would yell at me. However, I would write long letters to him telling him everything I wished I had the courage to say to his face. Whenever boys hurt me or break my heart, I write a letter telling them what I never got the chance to say. I have a box full of poems about broken promises, lies, and all other types of pain I have experienced. They are feelings that I cannot express by opening my mouth and saying this is how I feel.
I beleve we write to express something that we cannot express in spoken words. When you write you let a part of yourself out onto the paper. You say whatever you want to say to whomever you want to say it to. That is the greatest thing about fiction. You can make your character as strong or as weak as you want to. Your character can face all the challenges of your life and overcome them without even breaking a sweat. On the other hand, your character can be afraid just like you. It does not matter because they are your character. You put your heart into them.
I write when I cannot speak. My character, no matter what story, is not too timid to tell her mother how she really feels. She is not afraid of her big brother. She is not broken hearted or devastated by any boy. My character is strong. My character is brave. My character is everything I wish I could be. My character is never too afraid to say anything to anybody. My character is who I cannot be. My character says what I cannot say. That is why I write. Because if I cannot do it myself, it has to be said.
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