This I Believe

noa - Nashua, New Hampshire
Entered on April 1, 2007
Age Group: 18 - 30
Themes: forgiveness

I believe in second chance

I believe in people. I believe that people are human, that they are not always perfect. I believe that humans make mistakes. I believe in mistakes. I believe in a second chance.

Three years ago, my best friend betrayed me. She hurt me in the place that is important to me of all; my privacy. She told my most personal things and secrets to “strangers”. I felt like a glass cup that someone just threw out of the window. I wanted to scream and run. I wanted to break something. I wanted to break my friend. But most of all I wanted to know why. I wanted to know why and how. How she could have done it?

I went to her. She told me that she didn’t know why she did it and she was sorry. I looked at her. My heart was beating and I could hear my inner voice telling me “hit her”, “break her”. But I was so upset and so confused that I didn’t know what to do. I just looked at her, turned my back and walked away. This was one of the worst days of my life.

At that time I felt so hurt that I thought I would never forgive her. And I didn’t for a while. For a year we didn’t speak. For a year I didn’t see her, I didn’t see her in a way that I didn’t notice her, like she didn’t even exist. A couple of times she tried to ask for my forgiveness, but I refused. I was stubborn, and I ignored her.

For a year I hurt her. I hurt her in a way that I didn’t listen, that I didn’t try to understand. My pride came over me. During this year I felt bad, like I was the bad girl in this story. And although most of the people will say I wasn’t, I was. It was because I didn’t give her second chance.

After a year, I got softer, and I listened. I listened to everything she had to say. I understood. I understood that she was sorry, that she made a mistake. I realized that she didn’t give up. She didn’t give up because she knew I made a mistake. She knew that at the end I would listen, understand and forgive. She gave me second chance.

From the moment I forgave her, I was complete. From that moment I learned that through my mistake I got second chance.

I believe in a second chance. I believe in listening and forgiveness.