This I Believe

CHARLENE - OMAHA, Nebraska
Entered on January 27, 2007
Age Group: 50 - 65
Themes: death, illness, love

THIS I BELIEVE..I WILL SLEEP AGAIN. I AWAKEN AND SHUDDER FROM A BAD DREAM. REACHING OVER TO TOUCH MY HUSBAND OF THIRTY TWO YEARS..TO PUT MY FOOT TO HIS FOR CALM AND COMFORT. TO RETURN TO SLEEP..BUT HE IS NOT THERE. SLEEP EVAPORATES LIKE THE FOG AT SUNRISE. HE WAS DIAGNOSED WITH CANCER. WE WERE AWAKENED EVERY TWO TO THREE HOURS BY SIDE EFFECTS OF DRENCHING SWEATS FROM CHEMO AND MEDS. IT WAS A QUIET RITUAL. METHODICALLY, THE BEDDING WAS CHANGED. DRY NIGHT CLOTHES REPLACED. THE BUTTON ON THE TAPE RECORDER PUSHED TO”ON” BROUGHT THE SOUNDS OF WHALES DEEP IN THE OCEAN TO LULL US TO SLEEP. THIS I BELIEVE..I WILL SLEEP AGAIN. BUT FOR NOW, MY THOUGHTS ARE CONNECTED TO TO THE NIGHT.ALL THE MAMMALS NURSING THEIR YOUNG.THOUGHTS OF ALL THE NIGHTS WE WORKED AS A DOCTOR AND A NURSE HELPING THOSE WHO GOT NO SLEEP.